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It happened to me

I have always considered myself to be one of those women who would never find herself the object of someone’s unwanted attention. And should I ever find myself in that situation, I knew I would take the steps to fight back, to not be the victim.

Or so I thought.

I had made a new friend, and he was a handful to deal with, but friends come in all flavors and he was helpful to me when I had to move. He helped me to get 85% of my stuff out of my old place and for that I was very grateful for.

But, he also had his drawbacks. He has a penchant to interrupt which is a major pet peeve of mine. Another major flaw was his love affair with Trump. But, I dealt with those and allowed room for the friendship to grow. (He had other flaws, but there is no reason to list them all.)

Now, this guy is in some capacity, in the massage industry. Some times he would come around a place I hang out at and would walk up to various people and give them a massage. The first time he gave me one was to help me get rid of a migraine. Then, every few days he would just come around, massage my shoulders, neck or back.

After a couple of months our conversations didn’t change, but every once in awhile his touch did. Nothing obvious, nothing overt just… A bit different.

Then, one night I slept wrong, injuring myself. Somehow I had laid on my side in a way that became painful the next day. I woke to find I could barely lift my arm. Later that day, while relaxing after work and trying to get the kink out of my shoulder, he arrived and offered to help me with it.

So, we sat in a semi-secluded corner of my hangout and he started to work on it. His hands were gentle and cautious as he began, “exploring” the extent of area that was tense and in pain. I was wearing my work clothes, which made it a wee bit more difficult because, well, I was wearing two shirts. ( Cold weather, Ohio, we layer.) So he was working on my shoulder and the next thing I know is he has his hand through my sleeve.

This was different, but, it made sense, I thought.

Now, this was no quick massage and my shoulder was unwilling to release the pain. His hand didn’t stay in my shirt the whole time. He would pull out and work the kinks down my arm, up my shoulder, etc. I did what I could to relax, allow his work to work.

I was in pain. I was trying to relax. I was trying to let go. I was trying to ignore everything else in the shop. I was slow to realize that every time someone came in to the shop he would withdraw his hand from my shirt.

It clicked when his hand lowered, covering my breast.

It was only for a moment. A speck of time so short I wasn’t certain it happened. It couldn’t have. I mean, this doesn’t happen to me and, if it did, I wouldn’t just sit there…

Then he did it again.

I… Couldn’t process it.

He couldn’t be doing that.

Not to me.

Not there in public.

Not in my friend’s shop.

Didn’t anyone see him doing it?

Why didn’t I stop him?

I should have.

I should have jumped to my feet, bitched him out, slapped the crap out of him and embarrassed the living fuck out of him!

Instead I sat there, frozen as he cupped my breast and squeezed my nipple.

When he was done, he hugged me and left the shop for the day.

Me? I sat there.

Embarrassed, ashamed, shocked…

I packed up my things a few minutes later and went home, numb.


That is one word that seems the most descriptive of all the English language. You feel it as you say it, think it, imagine it. Numb.

It took about two days to talk to my friends about the incident. I was still in disbelief and, admittedly I wasn’t fully believed. Not fully believed, but they began to be more wary of him.

And me? Well, my habits changed a bit.

I arrived later than usual to the shop n hopes of missing him. As part of my privilege of being an unofficial employee I could find shelter behind the counter with the employees, keeping a wall between him and I.

After two weeks, though, I had come to terms with it and a spark was lit within me. That spark fired a confrontation between us to which I basically told him what he did was wrong, unwanted, unwarranted, and would never, ever happen again. He is not allowed to touch me, not even for a hug.

And then he said it.

“I don’t know why I did it. I don’t know why you allowed it. Obviously I find you attractive…” More was said, but you get the jiest.

A few days I confessed to two more friends. One who’s core is fire and the other who’s core is apparently brimstone. Together the two of them approached him and gave it to him. They flogged him, then banished him from the shop.

Things have been so relaxful since.

I still feel horrible it happened at the shop, and that my friends had to be involved in it at all, but I guess that shows me how strong my new friendships are to me.

I have mentioned no names here, and I don’t plan to. All involved know who is who. This was written for me.



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** Author’s Note: Be prepared. I rambled. **


I live in the United States of America.

I am an American.

I have never fought for my country but I have volunteered in various ways to help my fellow Americans.

I have seen hunger, fear, anger, pain and loss. I have also seen love, hope, honor, pride and power.

Around the world, Americans are seen in many ways, some positive and some negative. Opinions on who we are, what we stand for and why we do what we do vary in every mile around this vast planet.

We don’t want war, but we aren’t afraid to stand up and fight.

We don’t need to be begged to help others, and sometimes we are the first to come running when there is a catastrophe.

This has not always been the case.

The was a storm coming, a long time ago. The skies were dark, the air was foul and there were people on our doorstep begging for help. Their faces were lined with pain and loss, their bodies were weak from the fight and flight that brought them to our door.

We turned them away.

We shut the door, turned off the light and cowered in the darkest corner of our soul to hide from their plight. We covered our ears so as to not hear their cries.

They didn’t leave us alone. They stayed at our door, begging, crying for help. Others came, more voices, more pleas for shelter, protection, anything.

We ignored them.

If we didn’t see them, if we didn’t hear them, then it wasn’t happening. It wasn’t going to affect us.

We stayed in the dark, clutching an unlit candle, telling ourselves we were safe and all will be fine if we just ignore them.

We were wrong.


The United States of America has history. Granted it is not a history as long as those in Europe, but we have history all the same.

In our classrooms, in our history books, in the knowledge passed down through the years, a chunk of that history is rarely brought to light.

We were fence sitters.

“The great rule of conduct for us, in regard to foreign nations, is in extending our commercial relations, to have with them as little political connection as possible. Europe has a set of primary interests, which to us have none, or a very remote relation. Hence she must be engaged in frequent controversies the causes of which are essentially foreign to our concerns. Hence, therefore, it must be unwise in us to implicate ourselves, by artificial ties, in the ordinary vicissitudes of her politics, or the ordinary combinations and collisions of her friendships or enmities.”   –  George Washington’s Farewell Address of 1796

President George Washington, in his Farewell Address declared we must remain Neutral. Wars outside our borders meant nothing to us.

President Thomas Jefferson, in his Inaugural Speech reinforced our stance in this matter.

“I deem the essential principles of our Government, and consequently those which ought to shape its Administration. I will compress them within the narrowest compass they will bear, stating the general principle, but not all its limitations. Equal and exact justice to all men, of whatever state or persuasion, religious or political; peace, commerce, and honest friendship with all nations, entangling alliances with none.” – Thomas Jefferson’s Inaugural Speech of 1801

Jefferson was not the first, nor the last President that stated this policy.

“In the wars of the European powers, in matters relating to themselves, we have never taken part, nor does it comport with our policy, so to do. It is only when our rights are invaded, or seriously menaced that we resent injuries, or make preparations for our defense.” – President James Monroe, 1823

After Tsar Alexander II put down the 1863 January Uprising in Poland, French Emperor Napoleon III asked the United States to “join in a protest to the Tsar.” Secretary of State William H. Seward declined.

“Defending our policy of non-intervention—straight, absolute, and peculiar as it may seem to other nations… the American people must be content to recommend the cause of human progress by the wisdom with which they should exercise the powers of self-government, forbearing at all times, and in every way, from foreign alliances, intervention, and interference.”

This policy remained untouched until the war for Cuba’s independence from Spain. After a riot in 1898 in Cuba, the U.S. Consul-General feared for the safety of Americans in Cuba. By the end of January, 1989, the United States sent the USS Maine to Havana. She was scuttled in the Havana harbor on February 15, 1898. This ultimately led to the Spanish-American War (April 25, 1898 – August 12, 1898).

Afterwards, the United States went back to declaring it’s Neutrality. 

The Neutrality Acts:

  • The Neutrality Act of 1935 imposed a general embargo on trading in arms and war materials with all parties in a war. It also declared that American citizens traveling on warring ships traveled at their own risk.
  • The Neutrality Act of 1936, passed in February of that year, renewed the provisions of the 1935 act for another 14 months. It also forbade all loans or credits to belligerents.
  • The Neutrality Act of 1937, passed in May, included the provisions of the earlier acts, this time without expiration date, and extended them to cover civil wars as well. Furthermore, U.S. ships were prohibited from transporting any passengers or articles to belligerents, and U.S. citizens were forbidden from traveling on ships of belligerent nations.
  • The Neutrality Act of 1939 allowed arms trade with belligerent nations (Great Britain and France) on a cash-and-carry basis, thus in effect ending the arms embargo. Furthermore, the Neutrality Acts of 1935 and 1937 were repealed, American citizens and ships were barred from entering war zones designated by the President.


On September 1, 1939, Germany invaded Poland; Britain and France declared war on Germany, marking the start of World War II.

Two days later, President Roosevelt assured the nation that he would do all he could to keep them out of war. 

“At this moment there is being prepared a proclamation of American neutrality. This would have been done even if there had been no neutrality statute on the books, for this proclamation is in accordance with international law and in accordance with American policy. This will be followed by a Proclamation required by the existing Neutrality Act. And I trust that in the days to come our neutrality can be made a true neutrality…. This nation will remain a neutral nation, but I cannot ask that every American remain neutral in thought as well. Even a neutral has a right to take account of facts. Even a neutral cannot be asked to close his mind or his conscience. I have said not once, but many times, that I have seen war and that I hate war. I say that again and again.

I hope the United States will keep out of this war. I believe that it will. And I give you assurance and reassurance that every effort of your Government will be directed toward that end.”  – Franklin D. Roosevelt, “Fireside Chat,” September 3, 1939

On  January 6, 1941 President Franklin D. Roosevelt gave his State of the Union Address which is commonly called The Four Freedoms Speech.

“In the future days, which we seek to make secure, we look forward to a world founded upon four essential human freedoms.

The first is freedom of speech and expression—everywhere in the world.

The second is freedom of every person to worship God in his own way—everywhere in the world.

The third is freedom from want—which, translated into world terms, means economic understandings which will secure to every nation a healthy peacetime life for its inhabitants—everywhere in the world.

The fourth is freedom from fear—which, translated into world terms, means a world-wide reduction of armaments to such a point and in such a thorough fashion that no nation will be in a position to commit an act of physical aggression against any neighbor—anywhere in the world.

That is no vision of a distant millennium. It is a definite basis for a kind of world attainable in our own time and generation. That kind of world is the very antithesis of the so-called new order of tyranny which the dictators seek to create with the crash of a bomb.” – An excerpt from the State of the Union Address to the Congress, January 6, 1941

Neutrality. Fence sitting. Naivety. Close your eyes. If you can’t see it, it’s not there.

So we did.

Then it happened.

December 7, 1941.

Our mirage of Utopia was shattered.

Our rights and our freedom were no longer under our control. 

Seventy-four days after Pearl Harbor, President Roosevelt issued Executive Order No. 9066. The order forced over 110,000 Japanese-Americans to leave their homes in California, Washington, and Oregon. They were sent to live in one of ten detention camps in desolate parts of the United States.

None of the Japanese-Americans had been charged with a crime against the government. Two-thirds had been born in the United States, and more than 70 percent of the people forced into camps were American citizens.

We imprisoned our own citizens because of their heritage and skin color. The last of these “prisons” was finally shut down in March 1946.

Seven months after the war had ended.

Japanese-Americans were not the only ones treated this way. 11,507 people of German ancestry were interned as well. Not to mention the 1881 Italians that were interned.

After the Japanese attack on Pearl Harbor, the US demanded deportation of these suspects for detention on US soil. The countries that responded expelled 4,058 people. Among them were 81 Jews.


Why am I telling you this? Why have I gone to all the trouble to point all of this out?

Because someone out there wants to do it again.

I am speaking of the megalomania known as Donald Trump.



1. A type of delusion in which the afflicted person considers himself or herself possessed of greatness. He/she believes him/herself to be Christ, God, Napoleon, anyone famous, or everyone and everything, including a lawyer, physician, clergyman, merchant, prince, or super athlete in all sports.
2. Morbid verbalized over-evaluation of oneself or of some aspect of oneself.
[megalo- + G. mania, frenzy]
Another storm is coming.
Do not seek shelter with Donald Trump.
That’s not an umbrella he is holding, but a lightning rod and he doesn’t care about the consequences to you. Oh, he will survive. Of course he will.
After all, he thinks he is a God, when in fact, all he is is a fascist.


(ˈfæʃ ɪst)

1. person who believes in fascism.
2. member of a fascist movement or party.
3. person who is dictatorial or has extreme right-wing views.
[1915–20; < Italian]
Donald Trump is running for President of the United States and he doesn’t believe in the values we Americans believe in, wants to take away our freedoms and our rights.
This is not Trump Enterprise where you have to crawl on your knees and speak only when spoken to. This is the United States of America.
Keep it free.

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[teruh-riz-uh m]
1. The use of violence and threats to intimidate or coerce, especially for political purposes.
2. The state of fear and submission produced by terrorism or terrorization.
3. A terroristic method of governing or of resisting a government.
People who are terrorist are the ones who want you to be afraid.
They want to make you afraid to go out to eat.
They want to make you afraid to go out to a concert.
They want to make you afraid to go to school.
They want to make you afraid of religions.
They want to make you afraid to trust anyone.
They want to make you afraid to travel.
They want to make you afraid to go to work.
They want to make you afraid.
Don’t be afraid.
Don’t let them win.
Fight back.
Don’t give in.
Prove to them you are strong and alive.
Go shopping. Run in a marathon. Go to work. Go to school. Go to the movies. Go to a concert. Travel. Live. Love. Laugh.
You can do it.
I have faith in you.

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Attention George Lucas!

Look man, SHUT. UP.

You SOLD OUT to Disney.

You did this and we decried it. We knew when you did that that Disney was going to flood the market with Star Wars crap until we see so much of it we will never want to hear the two words together again. You, who barely released ANYTHING SW related so that when you did, we fans climbed over backwards and crawled through fire to get ANYTHING related to that universe, created that. Disney does that. It’s a proven fact. For example,Hannah Montana, Frozen, Star Wars. (Yes, it’s already a flooded market and even I am tired of seeing it everywhere.)

You can’t cry about Disney not taking your direction on THEIR films. If YOU wanted it done a certain way, YOU SHOULD HAVE DONE IT!

You can’t whine because the fans didn’t like the Prequels. You broke your own rule on them (and on parts 4, 5 and 6 when you “tweaked them”). What rule? The one about films needing awesome sets/backgrounds, but that they aren’t the story rule.

You can’t whimper and cry like a bitch because you sat on your midi-chlorian a$$ and continue finishing the great story in 38 years! Anne McCaffrey managed to write and co-write, 22 novels in her Pern series in 44 years! If you can’t do the math, that’s more then 6. (Yes, I know you DID do other projects, but so did she. But, since you mention it, her collected works near a total of 100 in 46 years. Which is still more then you.)

So, from a person who has loved the legend of Star Wars before you Sithed it, SHUT UP!

Now, move along. These aren’t the fans you were looking for.


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So, the Crossfire Series is going to be a TV produced by Lionsgate. No idea who the ACTUAL stars maybe, but here is a “PROPOSED DREAM LINEUP from IMDB”. Again, let me be clear, this is a PROPOSED lineup. (And my sarcastic comments…)

Below is the list of the actors rooted for the supporting roles in the upcoming television show.
1. Liam Hemsworth (“The Hunger Games”) as Cary Taylor, Eva’s bisexual model best friend and room mate

** Liam = yummy! Liam in a menage a quatre… umm…**

2. Jessica Alba (“Sin City”) as Magdalene Perez, Gideon’s best friend and date before he met Eva, in love with Cross but never had a sexual relationship with the businessman.

** Jessica as someone who never was able to get Gideon’s attention? Really?? **

3. Megan Fox (“Transformers”) as Corinne Giroux, Gideon’s ex-fiancé, who is still in love with him

**Yeah, I can see this. **

4. Adam Levine (Maroon 5 frontman) as Brett Kline, Eva’s rock star ex-boyfriend

**Any guitar player will fit in here…**

5. Leslie Mann (“Knocked Up”) as Monica Tramell Stanton, Eva’s mother

** Don’t know her. Is she a good whiner? **

6. Joe Manganiello (“Spider-Man”) as Victor Reyes, Eva’s father

** I always pictured Tom Skerritt even though he’s too old for the role. Don’t know why.**

7. Ted Danson (“Saving Private Ryan”) as Richard Stanton, Eva’s rich step-father

** Good to know that he’s only recognized by “Saving Private Ryan”…**

8. Chace Crawford (“Gossip Girl”) as Christopher Vidal Jr., Gideon’s half-brother

** Don’t know him. Will he play a good piece of $h!t? **

9. Courtney Cox (“The One Where Monica Gets a Roommate” ) or Mary Page Keller (“Beginners”) as Elizabeth Vidal, Gideon’s mother

** I never saw Courtney Cox as a selfish bitch… hmmm… **

10. India Eisley (“Underworld: Awakening”) as Ireland Vidal, Gideon’s adorable half-sister

** India playing Ireland… isn’t that a Football match? **

11. Hector Elizondo (“The Princess Diaries”) as Christopher Vidal Sr., Gideon’s step-father

** Hmmm… **

12. John Slattery (“Smoke Gets in Your Eyes”) as Dr. Terrence “Terry” Lucas, Pediatrician who hates Gideon

** Shrugs.**

13. Carrie Preston (“Strange Love”) as Anne Lucas, Dr. Lucas’ wife

** Shrugs. **

14. Michael Ealy (“Seven Pounds”) Mark Garrity, Junior account executive and Eva’s boss at advertising agency

** Cool enough.**

15. Rachel Hurd-Wood (“Peter Pan”) as Shawna, Mark’s sister-in-law

** Hurd-Wood… in a Crossfire show? Really? **

16. Kelsey Grammer (“Toy Story 2”) as Dr. Petersen, Monica’s psychiatrist and Eva and Gideon’s couple therapist

** Type-casting… seriously? I mean, it works, but maybe the guy doesn’t want to play every shrink ever cast. **

17. Jared Padalecki (“Supernatural”) as Nathan Barker, Eva’s former step-brother

** No. Just No. NO. Iam Somerhalder, sure. Cast a bad guy to play a bad guy. **

18. Luke Macfarlane (“Kinsey”) as Trey, Cary’s friend and lover

** Shrugs. **

19. Shemar Moore (“Diary of a Mad Black Woman”) as Parker Smith, owner of Krav Maga training center and Eva’s trainer

** That works. Or, how about The Rock? I mean, Dwayne Johnson? **

20. Raoul Bova (“AVP: Alien vs. Predator”) as Arnoldo Ricci, restaurant owner and Gideon’s best friend

** Shrugs. **

21. Jamie Chung (“Big Hero 6”) as Megumi, receptionist at advertising agency and Eva’s friend

** I prefer Brenda Song. **

22. Christopher Gorham (“Justice League: War”) as Scott, Gieon’s secretary

** Works for me**

So, there you have it and my two cents. Don’t you feel rich now?

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Greetings my friends, fans and followers!

It’s been awhile, hasn’t it?

How about a update?

Okay, Art. I have not been doing art lately as so much has happened, but I am back to it starting today. ((Sorry Dev, your’s is second on the list. Promise!)) My mind on art kinda went a bit drip dry, but I am working on it again. Yay! Cause I love doing it!

Life. Many things have happened in the past few months. First was the big change: a change of venue. I moved away from North Carolina and moved back to my home state of Ohio. I moved in with a couple of friends who I believe do know I am not the sanest person on the block, but are willing to try to deal with it. After the move, I managed to get a job, but then my heart was devastated when I was in a really good (or bad, depends on your view…) accident. In the end I was injured and my wonderful car was totalled. This has been a HUGE issue for me, as I have never been without wheels, and now rely on others for assistance until I can scrap together cash to buy a new set of rusty wheels.

The accident also put a crimp in my art and my writing because I could not sit at my desk like I had been, to write. So, I grabbed a notebook, and a pen and kept writing. This has caused another issue though, that I am trying to work through…

So, with that said, I hope to get back into being knee deep in the art and stuff this afternoon. Keep on reading y’all!

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Any of various small, mouse-like rodents of the genera Lemmus, Myopus,  and Dicrostonyx,  of far northern regions, as L. lemmus,  of Norway, Sweden, etc., noted for periodic mass migrations that sometimes result in mass drownings.

So, Patrick Stump was recently in the news for his blog post. In it he was commenting on the issue that “everyone hates Nickelback”. (The Rock band, not the refund.)

This is, amazingly enough, not news to me.

Oh, don’t get me wrong!

I like Nickelback.

No, I really do.


Now, you have to ask yourself, “Why the hell does she like Nickelback?”

That is actually a easy question to answer.

For a moment, I won’t say “Cause their music rocks!” Nope. Not saying that just yet. Hear the other reasons first:

  1. Chad Kroeger is frickin hot.
  2. Ryan Peake is frickin hot.
  3. Mike Kroeger is frickin hot
  4. Daniel Adair ((**sigh** The Drummer)) is frickin hot!
  5. Their songs are good.
  6. They have songs that are Metal, Rock or Light Rock.
  7. They know their listeners and know what they want.
  8. They don’t compromise on their style.
  9. Their style of music is what Rock used to be, before Grunge.
  10. Rock used to be about sex, drugs and having fun, themes they stick to and reap the benefits from.

Ten reasons good enough for you?

So, why don’t people like their music? Well, a percentage of them say it’s cause the themes of their music are based on strippers, sex, prostitutes, drugs, sex, drinking and sex. (See reason 10.)
Another reason could be that their music is neither rap, pop nor techno. Kind of a good thing, but since most people today fall into the category of lemmings and not individual people with the ability to enjoy what they like or experiment on what is out there. In today’s world, everyone thinks they can rap and make a living out of it. (You can’t and few do.) Techno is just “thump thump thump thump” of recorded music that breeds migraines. Pop is… Pop is the kind of music you like cause your friends like it, and the radio stations repeat their library of Pop every 70 minutes so, you eventually think you like the music cause you know all the words.
Why do people hate them?
Because the haters refuse to try to think for themselves.
The people that don’t hate, but also don’t like Nickelback… They have their own reasons.
To you, the intelligent reader (I know you are intelligent, cause you read my ramblings…) I say, “Never dislike something until you’ve tried it. Then you can use your own mind to determine if you like it, or if you are a lemming. If you are a lemming, please remove yourself from my followers list.”

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