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[teruh-riz-uh m]
1. The use of violence and threats to intimidate or coerce, especially for political purposes.
2. The state of fear and submission produced by terrorism or terrorization.
3. A terroristic method of governing or of resisting a government.
People who are terrorist are the ones who want you to be afraid.
They want to make you afraid to go out to eat.
They want to make you afraid to go out to a concert.
They want to make you afraid to go to school.
They want to make you afraid of religions.
They want to make you afraid to trust anyone.
They want to make you afraid to travel.
They want to make you afraid to go to work.
They want to make you afraid.
Don’t be afraid.
Don’t let them win.
Fight back.
Don’t give in.
Prove to them you are strong and alive.
Go shopping. Run in a marathon. Go to work. Go to school. Go to the movies. Go to a concert. Travel. Live. Love. Laugh.
You can do it.
I have faith in you.

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Darkness, The Recovery

Hello all.

So, I had been engulfed by the Darkness and struggled past it. I am glad to say that it is not as dark as it had been now. Also, I know why I got hit so heavily with it this time around.

My IC flared up and my PCOS was giving me some issues as well. On top of that, my kitties had to find a new home since my residency will be changing. And, not only that… I was suffering through some PMS.

I want to thank everyone who sent me good, warm thoughts, and I know I wasn’t alone in The Darkness.

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Change is coming.

Something new…

Something old…

I may ask a favor.

I may need a hand.

I hope one of you responds.

I hope one of you can.

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Sometimes some of us come across periods in our lives where we find Darkness. Sometimes it’s a fear or a thought. Sometimes it’s a action or motion. Sometimes it’s a person or a place. No matter what it is, it is still a Darkness. And, we each, in our own way fight that Darkness, struggle against it, run from it, hide from it, scream at it, cry from it, and we all just want it to go away.

Sometimes, some of us become incredibly lucky and things happen, or words are said, or actions are delivered, or… sometimes, people come into your life that help you diminish that Darkness. Oh, not all people. Sometimes you can come across people that you should never have let into your life. That you should never have befriended. Have never have listened to their lies, believed their promises, been enpassioned by their words… And those people increase the Darkness you know.

But sometimes, sometimes something rare and good happens. Sometimes that Darkness is swept away from you and you never think about it again except on a random night. But, for all intents and purposes, that Darkness, that fear, those memories… Sometimes they go away.

I don’t know exactly when some of my ugliest Darkness disappeared. I don’t know exactly who to thank for it. I know that in the last 10 years I have let some good people into my life. I have also let some rather nasty ones in as well. I know I harbored and hid some pretty ugly Darkness. Today, I was reminded of one or two of them, and then I realized that they had been gone. I don’t think they are back to traumatize me. I don’t think they will haunt my nightmares again. But, I also don’t think that they will impact my life like they had.

I want to thank all of those that had been a light in my life, who have helped remove this Darkness. I hope that if I haven’t yet, that one day I will be able to repay the kindness.

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Oh my god. I am so frickin worn out and tired!

To all my friends, fans and family; I am soooo sorry to have not wished any of you a Happy Thanksgiving. Yes, you were in my thoughts… somewhere… buried deeply… I blame… the retail industry, lol! As I am currently working in retail (again) as you know, Black Friday is the beginning of the end of the social life. And sleep.

Actually… I think I miss sleep more then I miss some of you.

A lot more.


Sorry… nodded off there for a second… What was I saying? Oh, yes. I miss you. And happy holidays (past and future, cause I will forget again. Bet money on that one. If you have any left.

So… how about a update? I know you have been sitting on pins and needles anxious to know about the recent happenings.

1.) Finally got my first cavity. Technically not my fault. I blame the water system. I am currently in a “country setting” that uses spring water, so no city chemicals, like chlorine or fluoride. I miss fluoride. And now… I have a hole in my mouth. Its not visible really… but to get the root canal would have been $750 and no way in hell I am paying that. Ever. **Update… Make that TWO cavities. Just had a cleaning and they found another one. 😦 Filling it in next week. Cant get it pulled, if it weren’t covered by my insurance. Its right up front. They say they can match my tooth color, so here’s crossing my fingers and praying.**

2.) I have lost track of time and days. Working overnights, and then going in at 3am, or 4am, or now it will be 2am… The alarm clock goes off, and I sit up and stare at it and think, “now why is it making that noise?”

3.) Star Wars: The Old Republic©®™. ***drool*** THIS is what I want for Christmas. I am currently a beta tester and LOVING IT! I have been given permission to talk about it, show screen shots… but… no… lol! I love it and its hard to explain why but it is a HELL OF A LOT OF FUN! I currently have tried Jedi, Smuggler, and Sith. Its really fun. I am accepting the pre-purchase game, or game time cards… feel free to spend freely on me. You know I will appreciate it, and I may end up remembering to say something to you at the holiday.

4.) AT&T… Took them 3 months, 4 modems, 2 routers, 2 on-site technicians, and about 82 phone calls until they were able to actually FIX my issues with them. FYI…. They have the crappiest Muzak™ on their phone system EVER! **Update… Ok, not quite fixed yet. They sent out yet ANOTHER technician, and he thinks its actually a wiring problem… Having been short on cash, my roommate had had the “wire-care” insurance taken off last year… And now we need it. We have re-ordered it, and next month we can call on it to cover repairs…. which we need… so, 30 days and counting before my internet is up and running like it should be…. which means…  I wont be needing to get Star Wars: The Old Republic™© too soon. I was going to download it, and pre-order it… but I would rather have a hard copy in my hands.**

I think I have more to say on this…. but I am to tired to remember… so, until later, keep the music rockin’, and enjoy the season. Check out Trans-Siberian Orchestra™ (Live if you can), best holiday music ever.

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Guys, I wanna take a moment here to write about a particular super hero.

I work with a woman whose husband happens to have the most extreme, and deadliest job on the planet.

He is a nuclear jumper.

I am not 100% certain that that term is the correct term, but in essence it is what he does. Literally.

Him and his crew travel around the planet to various nuclear plants, and “jump” into areas that need repair. They go in, and work feverishly, to repair, replace, remove whatever it is that is needing their attention, and then they get the hell out of there. They go through millions of hours training as a team repeating the tasks over and over again so that they can do this dangerous job. Do this job, mind you, in two minutes. 120 seconds. 150 heart beats.

My co-worker’s husband, and the few others that are qualified and trained for this job from the US leave this week and head to Japan.

Guys, you have my thoughts, my prayers, and my wishes for your safe return. And for your loved ones, I know they will worry beyond all worries while you are gone, for them, I wish them at least some nights peaceful sleep.

Good luck, and God’s speed.

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April is Spondylitis Awareness Month. Ankylosing Spondylitis (AS) strikes young men and women, usually between the ages of 18 and 35. It can be painful, debilitating and can fuse the neck and spine. It affects more than 33 million people world-wide. There is no cure

I have the dearest of dearest friends who has this dreaded horrible disease. This is something you would never wish on your worst deadest enemy, let alone someone you care about. There is no cure, and very very little treatment, and what there is to treat it, doesnt treat it for long.

For more info go to: http://www.spondylitis.org/

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